#Better Late Than Never 10

Yaay! So this week so far, i’ve been feeling pretty good. I feel positive towards life and i’ve decided to come off Prozac, I kicked it down the toilet as I no longer want to take that damned anti-depressant, my psych dr, doesn’t know that I’ve stopped taking it completely, he said to ween myself off of it; I strongly disagreed but told him I’ll do that MUAHAHAHAHA!!!!! I feel like i’ve won one over on my psych dr, i’m next seeing him on the 20th of July, that’s in a few weeks…he’s going to ask about the Prozac, I’ll just simply tell him that I’ve stopped taking it 😀 What can he do? NOTHING! He can’t force me to take something that I don’t want to take. My aim is to come off of my anti-psychotic too and be med free, but one step at a time 😉 

I went to the park today, which was fun and i’m still not sure if i’m still Muslim. I feel Muslim in my heart but in terms of practicing, other than observing hijab, I am NO LONGER Muslim. It doesn’t make me feel as sad as it did before as I know that I’ll return to Islam full heartedly later on in life insha’Allah.

 

Leaving Islam

So, i’m not sure if you guys are aware but i reverted to Islam almost 3 years ago. Well, I’m not proud to say it but I recently physically left Islam, in my heart i’m still a Muslim, even though I can’t and don’t practice it right now, i still believe that Muhammad PBUH is the last prophet and Allah SWT is the true God and that Islam is the only way to God. Just at this moment I can’t practice, so I feel it’s better if i physically leave, which I have done. So maybe in a few more years I will retake my shahadah. This has deeply saddened me and I come to tears when i speak it aloud 😥 

If you can offer words of advice, i’ll greatly appreciate it xoxoxoxo