#Better Late Than Never 10

Yaay! So this week so far, i’ve been feeling pretty good. I feel positive towards life and i’ve decided to come off Prozac, I kicked it down the toilet as I no longer want to take that damned anti-depressant, my psych dr, doesn’t know that I’ve stopped taking it completely, he said to ween myself off of it; I strongly disagreed but told him I’ll do that MUAHAHAHAHA!!!!! I feel like i’ve won one over on my psych dr, i’m next seeing him on the 20th of July, that’s in a few weeks…he’s going to ask about the Prozac, I’ll just simply tell him that I’ve stopped taking it 😀 What can he do? NOTHING! He can’t force me to take something that I don’t want to take. My aim is to come off of my anti-psychotic too and be med free, but one step at a time 😉 

I went to the park today, which was fun and i’m still not sure if i’m still Muslim. I feel Muslim in my heart but in terms of practicing, other than observing hijab, I am NO LONGER Muslim. It doesn’t make me feel as sad as it did before as I know that I’ll return to Islam full heartedly later on in life insha’Allah.

 

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Fluoxetine (Prozac) Diaries #2

Hey guys,

It turns out that I’m beginning to think my fluoxetine has stopped working for me, or made no difference at all, I think it’s just came to a halt at the low dosage I’m currently on (10mg), mostly because I was quite anxious to start it…just like I was with Risperdal. But even Risperdal has stopped making changes now.

I had my appointment with the psychologist today, to be honest we just spoke about some of the things I see and the voices and what I think they are etc. I told her I think that they’re spirits, which I do. This is why a part of me thinks, do I even NEED risperdal, when I’m possibly just psychic. But to be honest my episodes and anxiety issues have calmed down A LOT since the risperdal. I reckon my psych doctor, that I’ll see in a few weeks is going to increase my dosage of Risperdal and Fluoxetine, I don’t have much of a problem with that, they do make it easier to function correctly but not completely well, with day to day living.

My main worry is this…how do us people with mental health issues and psychosis date? how do we go about getting married like the people without these issues do…how do we tell our date about our health issues, without them running a mile away LOL. I know I’d be up to dating someone with similar issues to myself, stigma isn’t nice.

Peace Out Ninjas 🙂 

xoxoxo

Fluoxetine (Prozac) Diaries #1

Hey guys!

So, my p dr prescribed me 10mg of fluoxetine. I’ve been taking it roughly one month now. I was prescribed it for anxiety, OCD and mood, however i’m not seeing much improvement…

My first few nights on fluoexitine were….hmmm…a little different, I was wide awake all night and the early hours of the morning, I mean i’m usually always awake late anyway, however this time, I actually WANTED to go to sleep and done everything possible to make the daunting process happen. It just took it’s jolly sweet time!

I had the most awkward ‘review’ appointment with my GP as well, it was really weird, a few days ago my family had went to the clinic, he had asked how I am and stated he wants to see me…SO my amazing family members/main carer had arranged an appointment. Not only did I have no genuine idea what the Dr may have wanted BUT I had arrived an hour earlier…while waiting to see the GP, I had noticed one of my ‘shadow’ people, which I hadn’t known to be a hallucination, until I was told that not everyone sees them…which I had believed to be the case for many years *face palm*. 

An hour passes by and I see the GP, he asks what I’ve came to see him for, I reply…I don’t know…it remains awkwardly silent for more than 10 seconds…he eventually then says, no idea at all?, I reply…well, you said you wanted to see me the other day. This rather bamboozled Dr, returns from his sudden amnesia and says oh yea! how are things…you look a lot better than the last time I seen you, less fidgety. I reply yea, I currently take fluoxetine and I’m going to begin Risperidone soon, he tells me how important it is to take my meds, I agree and return home. 

All that waiting for awkwardness aye! LOL