Hey guys! How are you all doing?
I had a great weekend, yesterday I went on a LONG adventure to many shops and parks with a dear friend of mine. Oh, let’s not forget my corner Muller yoghurts, oh I LOVE them. I still have one more left, woop, woop!
But guess what!?!?! I’ve finished this year of college, I have a whole 10 weeks off, but i’ll be back next year probably to graduate, unless of course I get a damn good job before next semester haha. #Excited
Ugh, I’ve now accepted that I have OCD as well as social anxiety disorder, I wonder when I first got OCD and why I did?!?! Some of my symptoms are the middle, I have to be in the middle, sat in the middle, stood in the middle or walking on the inside of the pavement (The side that isn’t next to the road/curb), everything I pick up in a shop has to be from the middle, this can annoy people when I shop with them, especially food shopping with family or friends, it just has to be from the middle or the CLOSEST to a middle, if there is no middle. I usually do things small things like take something out of the fridge, wash my hands or whatever it is i’m doing has to be a certain amount of numbers (the numbers ALWAYS change throughout the day) if I don’t do it that amount of times, then something bad will happen to me or someone that I love/care about, usually death or contracting an illness, or something going wrong and it would all be my fault because I didn’t do it a set amount of times, there are rarely some happy thoughts like if i do something x amount of times then such and such a person will come to visit in the next 30mins or something like that (if they’ve said they are coming that day). It’s strange, I tell you! Every night before I sleep I need to shake my blankets and dust off my sheets before I can get into the bed, otherwise there’d be a spider or dots or something bad inside my bed, i’ve never, ever found a spider or anything like that in my bed before, but if I don’t do that, then my brain tells me that there will be one. I get many intrusive negative thoughts throughout the day as well, I don’t seem to dream often either.
Hmmm, well, I thought I’d just give you all an update of me and tell you of my new findings haha. In case you are wondering I haven’t been officially diagnosed with OCD and believe me, I don’t need to either, I didn’t list the rest of my OCD tendencies, but there’s more. Beyond a shadow of a doubt.
So tell me about what you’ve done lately? Oh and feel free to offer advice and share your experiences via comments down below.
– ‘Better Late Than Never’ xoxo